Today is Easter Friday, and since I'm not totally religious anymore it's more of just a free day. Ivanovitch is asleep so is Elaina. Her room is basically done, just have to pick up the closet on Saturday or Tuesday. I'll post some pictures later on. I also FINALLY opened her savings account so we should start putting money in there. My knee is still messed up and I don't know why, and I don't want to go to the hospital either. Hopefully time should make it better, or maybe I just need to exercise more. Either way, I am signing up for the gym and that's that. Not much of else going on, laters, chuzz!

Sitting here on a Saturday, I feel incredibly tired, being sick is totally draining me of all energy and happiness. It doesn't feel like a life threatening disease but I've been sick for so long it's making me angry. I've decided to devote all of my money and time to E.'s happiness, because she deserves it. She is so beautiful and such a fighter. I'm gonna start with re-modeling her room this month, and enrolling her in a couple of classes so she can make little kinder friends. Haha. I feel totally spaced out. I think I just need to give up on creativity this month, I'm just tired. I will do better next month. The end. Fin.

I'm feeling so conflicted about life. There are so many artistic ideas I have, none of which make money or involve a future for me of any kind. Maybe I should just be happy with this freedom I've been given? It's like a cycle I don't know how to fix. Ivanovitch is annoyed he is the only one making money, but I don't speak any German, so it's pretty impossible for me to make money, I don't know what to do, I am so annoyed...he doesn't want me to go to school either so it's like Uuurgh. Life is so complicated. Even if E. wasn't here, I still really wouldn't be able to do anything. Maybe I should just be satisfied with the way things are?? I still have a cough so the music part of my life is pretty much going down the drain, and we're pretty broke from vacation so no new recipes to try. I need more culinary equipment, I need more musical equipment, I need more house stuff all of which involves money. I think I should just take a really long nap, from all my frustration. Mainly the amount of people that have screwed me over in the past year. I hope they will get some kind of karmic retrubition. Ugh. Goodnight.

So we're back from Paris, I'm feeling a little heftier from all the pastries. Yikes! I need to start doing cardio again but I'm feeling totally hung over as we were going out the whole time we were there AND we had the flu. Gay. I also lost two of my hunger games books that was exciting....not. Looks like I'll have to order them again cus my friend is being a weirdo about sending them over. Fun times. We went to Disneyland, Eiffel Tower, the works, but I'm still complaining about how i was sick. Haha. I guess that's just me. I got a haircut this morning that looks pretty amazing, even though I messed my hair up a little last night. Anyway not much else to say...bye!!!