So if there's anything I've discovered over the last two months is that I don't mix well with others. I'm wondering why it is that I don't have any of my old friends or family that are as excited to talk to me as I am to them. Maybe I'm just a bitch, who knows...I don't get it. Maybe it's because I assumed we were close when we weren't really that close in the first place? I am a Cancer, after all. It's weird for me to make new friends here, whole new ball game. Pretty much half of my relationships that I think about I end up cringing. I just used to be so much more blunt and carefree when I was younger. I guess maybe life has made me bitter. Or Facebook really, because that is just the end of all friendships, I think those are where friendships go to die. It's like, so , what have you been up to? And then there's facebook statuses and pictures pretty much every other day. So it's like, why bother chatting with them. Maybe I just need to stop repressing all of my thoughts and just yell at people more. Usually when I end up doing that it makes it worse, so I don't know which one is the lesser of two evils. Probably the more mature thing to do is to just ignore someone and move on. I wish I could be as cool as Ivan. He just talks to everyone and everyone likes him, and I'm just a mean bitch that no one likes so I'm overweight and watch television most of the time to ignore reality. Meh, not so cool. There's so many things I've wanted to do, like be a writer, or a singer, I guess I still can, I just need to figure out who I am now, because I'm stuck in this past reality of myself which is "bold and brazen" , that's not really me anymore...I need to get my groove and figure out who I am. Then I think friends will follow. As of right now, I just don't mix well with others...